The Romance of Wonder

The Romance of Wonder

I have a new prayer. It came to me, powerfully, this morning. It goes like this:

All my misery is due to my choices.

My misery choices are made in fear of demons.

Demons are the artifice of childhood.

I am no longer a child.

I am an Adult!

I have the power of choice!

I choose wonder!

I choose peace!

I choose love!

I choose to be satisfied with wonder!

I choose to be satisfied with peace!

I choose to be satisfied with love!

I lower my standards to these simple things and gain the greatest fulfillment I could possibly imagine!

Each moment of my life, I, again, choose these things!

Who knows when it started. The Bible says it started with Cain and Abel. I take that to mean it started early in human history. So be it. It started, is the point. Someone hurt another. Then that other hurt another. And so on...and so on... The Vikings, using the gift of their boats, came and killed. They conquered and caused great misery. Attila the Hun. Alexander the Great. Julius and Augustus Caesar. William the Conqueror. Genghis Kan. Napoleon. Hitler. These and many others brought horrors to humanity. These horrors live in us. They live in the dysfunctions of our parents. Daddy abused his daughters. Drunken daddy beat his wife and terrorized his kids. Mommy was cruel and heartless. Their mommies and daddies did the same—“passed the poison”, I like to say. Foster parents cared only for the money from the state. The orphanage treated children as cattle.

This is the demon factory. Especially susceptible are children and these children grow up and become driven, dissatisfied adults. By “driven” I mean “driven to avoid the pain inflicted by demons.” Dissatisfied because running from demons distracts us from the very things that would dissolve those demons for good, and give us the greatest satisfaction.

Most of us products of poisoned parents, who reach adulthood, don't actually “grow up”. A mature, healthy adult is a master of choice. A healthy, mature adult, sees the wisdom of choosing love, knows the joy of wonder and lives in peace as a result. A healthy, mature adult has a dalliance with every moment—the romance of wonder and joy that is the true meaning of life.

Misery comes from running from demons. When we run from demons, we miss the joy and wonder in life. We miss opportunities that would support and further our joy. We seclude in the cloister of fear. A feeling of emptiness and dissatisfaction results—the “hole in the soul”. All our creativity and personal resources go into an attempt to fill this emptiness. There are many strategies. Excessive drinking, using drugs, over eating, excessively and compulsively buying and owning things, living recklessly, gaining and maintaining dominant positions over others, thrill seeking, engaging in self destructive behavior, you name it!

We can become quite frantic in our quest to mitigate this emptiness—this core pain. Often we are pushed to lie, cheat and/or steal. Our obsession overshadows empathy and compassion. My pain is far more important than your pain. “Love thy neighbor” becomes an all but impossible commandment.

It's time for humanity to grow up. It's time for all of us to stop and assess—to look inward. It's time for all of us to examine our choices and do a personal inventory. Have our past choices served us or screwed us?

It's time for a mass leap into the light. We have chased our tails since the time we lost our tails. You are never going to catch your tail. Give up! Surrender! Stop! And, try the prayer. Try love. Open your eyes to the wonder around you. By lowering your standards to simple wonder and the joy that lingers in the moment, you will gain the greatest satisfaction. You will never be bored again. You will never be unhappy again. You will be so brimming with satisfaction and fulfillment, you will have more than enough to share. And sharing will bring more satisfaction and fulfillment. The emptiness will be so filled, your soul will suffer flood advantage. Your life will overflow with abundance. Your desires will exactly coincide with your life. Every moment your desires will be granted. You will spontaneously create your purpose and spontaneously live it.

Imagine if everyone achieved this. Imagine a world full of people spontaneously creating their purpose. During the spiritual quest that was my earlier life, I participated in a “Movement Expression” dance class. In one exercise, the teacher has us all (as class of around twenty) close our eyes and move around the room. She told us to let go and trust. At first we ran into each other, but soon, we moved and even danced and like some unified being, avoided collision and moved in some kind of miraculous harmony. I believe this is possible for humanity as a whole. All moving about in life in some kind of miraculous harmony, as if one, self loving being, having a joyful romp on this beautiful planet we call Earth.